I’ve never been a dog person.
UGGH, the hair everywhere! Their bad breath! The constant work!
Courtney loves dogs, and she’s been asking to get one for YEARS. She’s always had small lap dogs, and always loved and snuggled them endlessly.
She kept asking and kept asking and I finally conceded.
I told myself I wasn’t going to be resentful, and wasn’t going to ignore the dog. I wanted it to be a good experience for all of us, wanted our home life to stay healthy and connected.
Courtney found Sammy- a senior rescue (half Terrier, half Maltese). She went to meet him, fell in love, and brought him home.
He is SO easy going. He’s seven pounds of delight, super easy to care for.
I was not prepared for the love I felt for this little dude.
We developed an instant bond; he follows me everywhere around the house. He loves to be in my yoga room, and naps on my meditation cushion while I’m streaming class (tune in at noon today to meet Sammy!).
He rides in my bag on my bicycle and pokes his little head out to get the breeze. You wouldn’t believe how excited he gets when I grab my bike bag now. He jumps up and down and bounds around the living room. It is adorable beyond belief.
I have completely fallen for this loving, older dog.
It’s fair to say I dote on him more than Courtney. I hold him like a baby to scratch his belly. He licks my face. We snuggle during nap time.
It was so cold in the mornings in Ithaca last weekend (49 one morning!) and Sammy was shivering. I marched him into a pet supplies store and got him a little pajamas set.
WHO AM I???
What can I say, it’s the year of the pivot!
And now that I’m over the moon for this little being, I’m sad that he’ll be eleven next month. I’m already thinking I wish I would have more time with him.
But the yoga pulls me back. Yoga philosophy reminds us that
- ALL of this is impermanent,
- There are no guarantees on time (hello Covid!),
- Ultimately we have much less control than we think we do,
- We’re all headed to the same place, and it’s not savasana (final resting pose).
The impermanence doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t connect and hold tightly to what we love. The fact that every one of us will die does not mean that it’s not worth it to celebrate life.
In fact, it’s the exact inverse. Because none of this is guaranteed (our lives, our health, our jobs, our relationships), we are invited to fully savor each experience.
The remedy to impermanence is not to withdraw, to shrug and say, hey this will all go away some day anyway, so what’s the point? No, it is to show up fully present, so we can drink in the exquisite rasas (flavors) of our life.
It is by showing up for this embodied experience again and again that we extract its value and meaning, and live the life that best expresses our heart’s longing.
And I, apparently, was longing for a tiny dog. Who knew??
May your life continue to delight and engage your presence, even during this pandemic.
We are working hard on the new space, and will be in touch soon about our reopening plans! We’re planning for mid to late September.
For now, continue to join us on Zoom, or one of our outdoor classes. I hope to see you on the mat soon, in celebration of this impermanent, imperfect life.